Cruising into October
October is a contrast of joys and sorrow, Love and Loss. It’s my favorite month of the year—the month I was born, became a big sister, a godmother, and a mother.
It’s my worst month of the year when I lost my firstborn son, Nick.
In an effort to brighten the month, to soothe my soul when these emotional muscles cramp from harsh memories, I’ve decided to share what this month means to me. That pain and happiness can coexist even in the same moment. That grief never ends but flows with the seasons and milestones. This is why I slow down and surround myself with what and who lifts me up.
Each day this month, I will share a story of my joy or sorrow—sometimes both. I only ask that you hold space for me and anyone struggling this month for whatever reason. If you knew my Nick or were impacted by his beautiful spirit and legacy, feel free to share those stories with me. They also soothe my soul.
Riding my motorcycle with my younger son, Stephen, was the perfect way to cruise into October. As we zipped along the back roads with Stephen leading, I felt Nick soaring above us. Riding is one of my greatest joys.
When I’m riding with family, I am overjoyed. I sing songs that bounce into my head with a smile plastered on my face. I am in my happy place.
Am I singing, smiling or both!?
Harley Davidson Nightster Special and Kawasaki z900
Motorcycle riding requires all of my attention. Shifting gears, leaning into turns, watching for cars and animals from every direction keeps me in the present moment. This also helps to distract me from negative thoughts and sadness.
Harley Davidson Nightster Special and Kawasaki z900
I know the time will come to sit with my feelings of missing Nick. After 15 years, I know what works for me, which I’ll share.
But for today, I’m so grateful I was able to ride with my boys with the sun shining bright.
Oh, October—your vibrant light amazes me!